Side-aches and Heart-breaks

Inside my mind you smile often
laugh louder
cry less
kiss sweeter
and hug tighter.

Upsidedown your permanent frown looks like a smile
I tell you, 'you are prettier this way'
but your lips twist and tell me 'no'
and you don't want to be happy.

Inside-out your heart is still just like mine
thrumming tunes
pumping blood
beating life
living.

Sideways i can only see half of what you are
[i always see only half of you]
i only see half a smile
[if i'm lucky enough to see one at all]
and most often i only see half a frown.

Outside your front door you say goodbye
close the door in my face
walk away laughing
and i cry.

Right-side-up you are my life
you don't want that
but i do
andyou'restillsaying'no'.